We have a garden outside. It’s
quite beautiful actually. It’s ten feet by six feet. The only trouble is that
it’s surrounded by a ten foot barbed wire fence. How ironic we can’t even touch
the very beauty that is in front of us. All because some nut might eat the
flowers and choke to death.
Riiight, that mother fucker
Lawrence. Damn him for ruining it for all of us.
Lucy down the street from me had a
nice garden. They were Jehovah Witness’. A chatty group but harmless. I never
understood why as a child you wouldn’t want to celebrate xmas. But then as I
got older I realized that celebrating a day of consumerism to non existent
people times two is insane to me. I am the sardine in the can. I am the myth in
the halls. Not these two, they paint as fantasy figures of literature that
could have been easily written on the back of a bubble gum card.
Lucy ended up moving away in the
Spring. We were just sophomores in high school.
She had braces, freckles with strawberry blonde hair. She actually resembled
Strawberry Shortcake- odd that always was to me. I started to psychoanalyze
myself at a young age because I wondered why I would get an erection around my
sisters Barbies. I blame Lucy for that.
We held hands and kissed. My paws
tried their best to slog through the maze of clothes in order to touch the holy
grail- her bed was shrouded with stuffed animals and plastic dolls buried tight
into shelves that contained every book from when she was a baby. My fingertips stretched towards that unobtainable goal. I felt the fleshy crease between her
leg’s, soft pubes tickling me. Her body contorted in waves of emotion as my fingers
pushed passed the moist skin. I started kissing her neck as she turned away to
gasp. I assume this was her first time doing anything like this. But no one
ever knows the show that goes on inside the head of a woman. Especially a
sophomore.
As her little cuing began to
accelerate, I thought this might be a good time to work on opening that avenue
to pleasure faster. I withdrew my hand to see tinges of blood dotting my
fingertips. I stared at them for the longest time, never seen anything like
this before. Lucy started to unbutton her slacks. She noticed me, the blood- but before her lips even parted with the words, “Oh NO…!”
I shoved them into my mouth,
savoring their pubescent taste.
A bombastic reality check hit me
in the form of Lucy, who punched me dead center off the side of my head.
Sending me ass over tea kettle onto the floor. The shock of her hit and
thankfully landing on that soft beige carpet jarred me back to attention.
She snapped at me! Asking why I
would ever want to taste blood! With the adage~ of “Why vaginal blood!” My
response was a the exact response I felt as a person and as a 16 year old. The
obligatory shoulder shrug. She really took offense of my action and hopped off
the bed with the grace of a gymnast.
Planting her feet on either side
of my head. I rose.
“You disgust me!"
As I wobbled to my size twelves, she slapped me in the face. I wasn't certain about the amount of abuse I was gettting for what seemed to be a beautiful moment or JUST a moment between two people I thought. Do I take it personal or was it a deep seeded issue that she had been harboring within her own desire to do or had done or had someone else done it before? I don't know. Frankly I didn't care. I just wanted to get the hell out of there without being hit again.
I came downstairs to a still empty house. She followed me as far as the top of the stairs and declared she didn't want to see me anymore. Frankly, I was fine with that.
As I started down, what she didn't realize was that I had obsconded a marker from her desk when I passed it by. About three steps in I began to scraul backwards with the letter "T" then "N" then "U".....that's as far as I got before she reached me and began screaming like a banshee. Grabbing the Sharpie out of my hand and yelling more obseneties at me.
"I guess it will be left to interpritation". I said.
With that I was out the door. I coud hear her angry cries echoing throughout the neighborhood. It was beautiful.
Her brother's bus had just pulled up as I hit the sidewalk. We gave each other the old "head nod," signaling that we acknowledged one another, but that's about it.
He was a nice enough kid. I'm sure he has caught more bullshit than he cares to admit from her. Perhaps his heart will be filled with glee as much as mine is right now when he lands home.
it got rough for me after that for a spell. But then again life is no picnic, except on holidays.